I realised something while chanting yesterday.
My brain was randomly thinking about why I like certain kind of people, and anyway, I was going through about a person I have in mind, that I realised that for some reason, made me think back of why I thought the ex was attractive and “my type”.
His character or how I took to him as my type only probably lasted till he went to the army. Afterwards, I liked him because of his patience, and probably because I thought he loved me.
Now that I look at him from this “other side of someday”, obviously during the relationship I started to get tired of his weaknesses. Of course, I did my best to accept them (else I wouldn’t have stayed for so long), look at the positive side of him, but I think obviously it didn’t work. Especially when all his negative points manifested even stronger due to the distance.
I was talking to Ryan that day, and he told me to stop looking for people who will have to go overseas for a period of time, because one was enough for me. And based on his own experience, distance doesn’t work, unless you probably have the money and time to go over. That is rather true, and it breaks my heart to really have to accept it unless otherwise.
Whatever. Shall make use of the current time now, because the future will always change.
At least now I know what type of people I can live with.