End of 2012

So last year I set myself some goals. So here they are, and whether I’ve done anything to achieve them:

  • Improve in percussion skills (work consistently)
  • Play cello well (and seriously) – >.<
  • Be a better person to my family and friends
  • Do more kosen-rufu
  • More exposure to live music – Done
  • live life fuller
  • Travel to 2 countries – Travelled to TW, Malaysia, HK, Bangkok, Japan
  • Stay healthier
  • Work on 1 major photography project
  • Have at least 20k in my bank accounts – Fail TTM
  • Be able to communicate better – Better!!
  • Hit my commission consistently at work – Failed this too

Not sure if I should make another list. Not today at least. But ta dah!

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If the world ends today.

So apparently, the time that the world will end is on 7.11pm today.

If it really happens, I would say that I have no regrets so far.

Sure, there are still a lot of things that I haven’t done, that I haven’t experienced, but for someone my age, I’ve done about 70% of the things that I wanted to, and that’s not bad I think.

As much as I choose not to believe it, I hope nothing will happen.

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I know I haven’t blogged about him yet, and I haven’t written anything here. But today, I am actually feeling pretty emotional (time of the month) so I want to write something.

There was a time when I thought that I had the best. That I was being well-loved by another person. But that time was over. And that thought was false.

And what they say is true. You never know what the best is until you have it.

I met Eugene on Aug 2 this year, through jamming with Pinwen and Sihan.
My life hasn’t been the same since. Within a stranger, I felt lots of connections with him. He made me feel comfortable. Rides home after jamming were never the same. In fact, I looked forward more than anything to spending some time with this person.

I was scared at that time though. Scared of falling into another hole and covering myself with sand and insanity. I didn’t like the me when I was in the past relationship and I didn’t want to hate myself again.

But then I thought, “hey, I had the past year to work on myself. I am a different person now.” And, if I was very sure of what I felt, should I give it up?

And I was tested.

My feelings were tested when I found out that I may not be number 1 in his life. That there may be someone else. I was angry at myself again, for thinking that perhaps I may have the chance. Oh, how I remember that night.

I was cautious after that. Scared of being hurt. Scared that I was wrong.

But then everything fell into place.

That Train song? “This Will Be My Year” ? Yup this is my year ๐Ÿ™‚

I learnt how a boyfriend should treat his girl properly (I actually discussed this with people, and how I was treated previously was NOT the right way), what being myself meant, what not being worried daily while in a relationship was about, what being a better person meant and how to trust another person again.

It has been almost 3 months, and some may think that it may be too soon for me to be sure. But hey, why not?

Love you Eugene Huang. ๐Ÿ™‚

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Absolute vs Relative Happiness

Wanted to remind myself about this in one way or another.

Attended study meeting yesterday, and the gosho was “Hero of the World”.

I loveeee how one topic can have different Buddhist principles incorporated inside, that makes me look at things and reminds myself about applying these principles in my life.

Anyway, one topic was “Absolute vs Relative happiness”.
It’s just something sooo simple, but yet we often forget about. We often forget that we should be happy or sad because of the things we do, but not others. Yes, they may upset us, they may affect us, but we shouldn’t base our happiness on what others do.

I’m not good at explaining, so I got these paragraphs from: http://www.sgi.org/sgi-president/writings-by-sgi-president-ikeda/on-practice.html

“When you get right down to it, does material wealth assure happiness? Does fame? Does living in a big house? The answer is an emphatic “no.” All the time we see people embroiled in bitter battles over money; people plunged into misery when onetime fame and popularity disappears; people ruining their own lives when they let fame and power go to their heads; and people living in large luxurious homes where family members cannot stand one another and a cold and hostile atmosphere pervades.

Such things as money, fame and material possessions offer a fleeting, transitory kind of satisfaction, something which can be called “relative happiness.” However, when we transform our lives internally, when we develop within ourselves a brilliant inner palace, then we can be said to have established “absolute happiness.” If we develop a state of mind as vast and resplendent as a magnificent palace, then nothing–no matter where we go or what we may encounter in life–can undermine or destroy our happiness.”

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3rd trip in 2012: Random HK Trip with Desmond, Kailun and KT (13 – 18 June 2012) – Not a typical HK trip!

Long overdued post I know! But I shall post this up still! ๐Ÿ˜€

I did random stuff. A lot. This year.

So one of the most random and expensive thing I did was to agree and book tickets to Hong Kong one Sunday.
It was after Desmond told me about the SIA offer that they’re giving to Hong Kong. He wanted to go with his gf, but the catch is that in order to enjoy the offer, a minimum of 3 people are required.

Within 15 mins I made my decision, and by the afternoon, a flight booking was made. Hahahaha.

I was determined that this trip will allow me to visit places that I have never been to at HK. I was a little worried at the beginning that because of my youth (haha), Desmond and his gf Kailun will not allow me to venture to places alone. But in the end, everything was pretty spontaneous, we changed plans a bit, and I was able to fulfil my HK to do list! haha so awesome!!

Anyway, this trip was pretty good, as I made new friends with Kailun and her colleague (who joined us and was real great help. Achieved lots of things that I wanted to, which mainly would be to explore more of HK. ^^

This trip was the week before my BKK trip, and naturally, my boss was rather angry. haha. But oh wells.

Anyways, here goes!!

Night 1 (14 June)
Watched a few movies on the plane. SQ is awesome.

I had a near panic on the plane when I realised that by the time we reached HK, it would nearly be past midnight. AND that realisation that you may not get a room coz it’s “the next day” sucks. Haha. Immediately called up the hotel upon landing to make sure that I would still have my room.

Anyway, Kian Tong (KT), who is Kailun’s colleague at work could speak cantonese!! So he was the one who got a cab for us to where our hotels are located.

I checked in to my pleasantly nice hotel room at Guang Dong Hotel with 2 single beds however (no wonder they’re expensive!), and afterwards went downstairs to meet them to walk around. The place was located near lots of pubs and bars, and I got disturbed by a foreigner within 5 mins of going downstairs -.-

All for myself~

So anyway, KT was really familiar with the area and we walked around, bought a SIM card, snacks, and then went back to the hotel for the night. I really settled down pretty fast. It was rather scary to be alone in a quiet hotel room, but I enjoyed the freedom quite a bit to be honest!

Day 1 (15 June)
Woke up rather early!

Kinda miss these kind of views!

Desmond and Kailun

I remembered that KT told us about this nice dim sum place which had “life changing ๆตๆฒ™ๅŒ…” so we headed there. It was a bit weird at first, as I don’t know KT at all, but after this meal, it was all pretty okay! He’s a bio teacher I think?

The place is ๆทปๅฅฝ่ฟ (Tim Ho Wan in Cantonese) [Link at Open Rice]

Awesome chee cheong fun

One of my favourite dessert. Flower with jelly… ๆก‚่Šฑ็ณ•๏ผ lol but they don’t do it like they do in HK!

the ๆตๆฒ™ๅŒ…! But didn’t take the insides. VERY YUMMY THOUGH.

Then they headed to the big Buddha at Lantau Island. As I’ve been there twice, I decided not to go up again. Hung out around Citygate Outlet shopping centre, mainly to buy Body Shop stuffs, use the free Wifi, and just slack.

Saw quite a few Singaporeans.

Afterwards, I headed off myself to a Nunnery!! Chi Lin Nunnery and Nan Lian Garden. They’re just side by side. Wanted to go somewhere quieter instead of seeing the noisy HK all the time!

Pretty exciting btw, travelling to the unknown. But anyway, HK is very accessible and there are loads of directions all over so I didn’t get lost.

The Garden.

Some rock exhibition

It got dark pretty soon! So I headed back to look for the rest to have dinner! Can’t remember what was the place we ate at haha.

Brought them to Tuttimelon Lolol.

Day 2 (16 June)
We met up again to have breakfast! KT brought all of us to this really hidden place to eat Tomato noodles!! I was a bit apprehensive at first, coz tomatoes are usually sour, but I tell you, once you eat one mouth of it, you want more!!!

It’s called ๆ˜Ÿๅบงๅ†ฐๅฎค Star Cafe

Shop No. 36, Champagne Court, 16-20 Kimberley Road, Tsim Sha Tsui

Very ulu and rather old


We shopped around if I remembered correctly, then headed to another place for more food.
This time, at this place where they shot a famous movie! Unfortunately I don’t remember the name of the movie. LOL

Goldfinch Restaurant

Ok, not I realised that we were basically eating the whole day LOL. KT brought us to eat “life changing wantan noodles” which turned out to be Mak’s Noodles!!

They were life changing indeed. I can’t really eat the Wantan noodles in Singapore anymore since the first time I had them last year.

They went to the Peak after that, and as I’d been to the Peak three times (YES -.-), I decided to hang around their Causeway Bay area and just nua.

Found their City Hall which is like our Esplanade

War memorial

Finally stepped into the church grounds after so many times

After that I think I hung out at this cafe near the Peak to wait for them, and then we went back. haha.

Day 3 – 17 June
Didn’t do much on day 3. Had dim sum for breakfast again!
This place apparently is famous with superstars and it’s quite interesting how it’s underground.

One of the baos is famous, but can’t remember which one 4 months on (now) >.<

Kailun, KT and I did a bit of shopping, and I got a nice leopard print umbrella. Lol. Desmond went to meet someone in the music industry in HK which links to his work here in SG.

We had some bo luo bun too. Haha. Eat eat eat non stop!

After that I set off myself to a monastry – Ching Chung Koon ้’ๆพ่ง€. Hahaha everyone must feel that I’m trying to be funny. But anyways, just wanted to see something different in Hong Kong that not everyone in SG will go!

Unfortunately it was raining, but was still having loads of fun with the travelling all the way to New Territories! It’s a really really different place from the Hong Kong that everyone goes to.

their LRT station.
You have the liberty to whether you want to tap your card in and out at the station. But of course, most people actually do tap it. took me a while to figure out what I’m supposed to do.

Rainy Rainy Day.

Pretty nice actually.

Met a black cat after I felt eyes staring at me from a chair. Hahaha. Quite cute but i didn’t dare to touch it.

Slacked in my hotel room for a few hours, got bored watching Tv so ended up drawing eye liner, etc HAHAHA. Then met the rest for dinner after that.

Kai Lun‘s


Oh we went to watch a HKCO ensemble performance that night. Free tickets because of Desmond’s connection! They were damnnn good! And I got to see the chinese version of a cello. Didn’t take pics, but just wow!

Then I brought them to eat BBQ food at ๅคฉๅŽ (tin hau) and also at some famous dessert shop. hurhur. Very glad that I could still remember how to go lol.

Then we went to Stars Avenue. My 3rd time there >.< Don't go during summer. It's kinda warm but windy.

I didn’t take a pic of this before.

Quite late afterwards!

Day 4 (18 June)
Final day!! There’s a highlight for this HK trip, which was Lamma Island! I’d originally planned to go on the 2nd day, but as Desmond and Kailun wanted to go as well, so we changed it to another day. The me had a very huge struggle to whether I should stick to my plan or change it. In the end, I decided to change the day accordingly as it would be more fun with friends anyway!

I did not know that to go from one part of the island to another, you’ll have to HIKE. -.-! All the books and websites that I’d read about Lamma Island, did NOT mention it. oh gosh.

2 hours hike omg. We discovered that only after we walked along the path and it just got higher and higher.

Oh by the way, there’s a life changing tao huay along the way, that’s SUPER WORTH THE HIKE. The view at the top is also just amazing!

Lamma Island is a really quaint little place, and to be honest, it’ll be cool to live there and just chill after retirement. Hahaha.

To get there, you’ll have to take a ferry. Just ask around and you’ll be able to find the pier for Lamma Island. There are 2 ferry terminals at Lamma Island, just choose one and hike to the other one there.

Just chio

Some oily fried rice there

Oh ya, one quaint little thing there is that they don’t have full-sized vehicles there. Only small stuff like these, and little non-petrol cars I think? Even these vehicles aren’t allowed to be driven around during the day or something.

Oh and they have loads of dogs around:

Pit for dogs to poo

Life changing tou fu

Electricity Generators for the island i think


Now comes the difficult part after the beach -.-!

So high up. Do note that I was carrying my fieldpack -.-


Desmond and Kailun. KT is camera shy

They have farm plots

The scary kamikaze caves. Apparently the Japanese used these caves to hide speedboats for the Kamikaze missions. >.<
At the other side

Some drink. Can’t remember but it was damn good

Basically after that, I had a bad headache and felt like puking so I stayed the rest of my last day in the hotel room -.-!
Kailun and Desmond delivered dinner to me. ๐Ÿ™‚

Final meal of the trip with them!!

Basically I pretty much enjoyed this trip! Went to new places, discovered interesting stuff and got to know Desmond and his gf better!! Sometimes in life, it’s awesome to just do something random!! ๐Ÿ™‚ Grab any opportunity that you have!

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A happy post. :)


Hope this doesn’t freak you out if you read it!

Thank you for everything you’ve did for me and for all the Saturdays.

Looking forward to more to come.

You know who you are!! ^^

(Wah so cryptic)

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The Day I Met You.

8 Sep: Writing this while being very inspired to write something worthy of Thought Catalog. I know it’s kinda impossible, as the standard there’s pretty high, but here are my thoughts that I would really liked to be kept somewhere in this blog.

21 Sep: Posting this up! ๐Ÿ˜€

The day I met you.

It was a pretty insignificant day. I didn’t even know you were going to be there and be part of my life then.

I remembered being slightly nervous throughout the day. As it would be the first of the few practices before the performance. This would have been the 2nd time I’m playing in a pop band.

I knew then, that I would be meeting a guitarist who I’d played with previously, and my friend who’d organised this practice. He is your friend too. That’s why you were there.

I couldn’t decide what to eat for dinner, and settled for some handmade noodles. The stall owner didn’t want to give me my order at first, and the cook helped me. The noodles were awesome however.

As I sat there wondering if I did enough preparation for that practice session.

As shared with you before, the moment you came up, I got a HUGE surprises as I didn’t know you were there. Second reason I’d explained with you before. ๐Ÿ™‚

Perhaps my impression of you then was very – how should I put it – that you were intimidating, and a good musician. I didn’t know you at all then, and everything was based on the videos of you that I’d seen, your performance with our mutual friend (your previous band), photos, and comments from others. Quite interesting how we already make an impression of someone even without meeting them.

I remembered being quite quite annoyed when I wasn’t being thought of as the drummer by you. Haha! In fact, a negative impression had been marred from it!

But after that moment, one where I was sabotaged by our friend, I think you’re pretty nice! And it turns out that you’re sick but you still came, and that you were quiet not because you’re being proud but because you’re tired.

Wait, back to that day. If we were to gauge on that actual day, I think perhaps my “first” impression of you was already originally formed, that day was pretty insignificant at all.

Never judge anything based on the beginning, but how it continues. ๐Ÿ™‚

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Music – my journey.

Was digging out some of the old stuff from my hard disk to send to a new friend of mine. Someone who I’d known recently and would say that I’m glad to know! ๐Ÿ™‚ Basically just trading music with him. So what happened is that I’ve been telling him about all the symphonic band stuff, and he told me to just send him a few to try. So that’s what I’m doing now, and so I decided to listen to them as well.

How much time flies! When I first stepped into band in 2003 (I joined only in sec 3). I used to listen to whatever that was on the radio, and I couldn’t accept many things at first, like rock, rap, and I can’t remember what else. They were either too noisy, or too boring. Used to listen to a lot of pop and alt rock (when I was 11 haha) but slowly started to accept different things, and different music.

Now that I’m stepping into Crayon Parade, these things are a whole new experience for me. To be honest, I can listen and accept new genre of music rather easily now, but still can’t tell the whole layering thing, or anything else. Still learning, and basically having fun. Hopefully someday I will be able to understand just like what I did for Symphonic band stuff. ๐Ÿ™‚

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Just be honest with me.

My life has been rather drama lately. A little too drama to my liking, but I am handling it better than I expect myself to be. Rather, how I thought I would cope. I just handled things as it is, and take things as it comes. I guess this is how I manage to cope well. ๐Ÿ™‚

Quite interestingly is how my friends reacted to it. I think even my best friend at work is more shocked than me.

Wait, enough suspense I guess. What happened was my ex got married. How I found out? Not gonna say, but if you know me, if I really want to find out about stuff, I know how to do it. Legally of course. Most of the time I don’t bother, but hey, I’m glad that I don’t feel anything at all actually. It’s like just finding out that an old acquaintance got married despite anything. Haha.

I don’t usually agree to what my office good friend says about relationships (though I do accept them as everyone has the right to free speech and opinions PLUS they’re always a good insight ๐Ÿ™‚ ), but what he said is really true. “Getting married at this age it’s either shotgun or stupidity”. I have to agree with this. And knowing the ex, even though I know you all say that he might have changed, the core him will have stayed, and unfortunately, based on how he treated me, I know that there are disaster recipes.

His parents didn’t go, and none of his relatives too.

Well, as long as he is happy.

Anyway, I think this will happen to anyone, ex getting married that is. Only thing different is that it happens to me earlier, and thankfully I’m not still in love with him. Just sad that obviously I wasn’t loved before. But I remembered 2 things that I told him, and obviously it got to him, and he listened!

Ta da! Made an impact on someone’s life after 4 years hahaha ๐Ÿ™‚

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