And that’s why I need to run…

I have quite a few things I am angry about. Angry as in I really feel for it. I really want to do it, but I CANNOT.

I don’t get angry that easily, but sometimes these just gets stuck inside me and I don’t know what to do with it. So I’ll just put them here, and start working on them on a different way.

I haven’t ran for > 1 week.
I want to run the AHM > Run NUS 09. But the early bird price is already GONE. Would you pay for the price difference?
I have to settle CPF stuff because of my school fees.
I want to do more Daimoku.
I want a day to myself for rest.
When will the LG person call me up?

As you know, I’m a person who’s happy only after I’ve accomplished stuff and not through having new things.

But then, winning this is still not too bad: 🙂

I need to run to destress…

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Of Chengdu and my plate of thoughts.

Seriously emotional blog entry. Avoid if you don’t want to hear me.

Went to Pierce Sec for POP rehearsal today. Was assigned the Glocks part. Made a new friend, Hui Xian from Pierce Alumni. =)

Had lunch with Shamin and Dickson.

Had another OPP Gathering today.

Was supposed to be a picnic to celebrate all our birthdays, but the plan failed becuase we (I said “we” because we were really too busy, I understand yea?) were all too busy and all.

*Okay, I know this sounds emo*

Henry couldn’t come because today was his commissioning.
HS had a navy exercise today.
Jia Hui had something on.
Madeline went overseas.
Li Ying was not feeling well.

So there were the 7 of us left. Huzz, Edmund, Vernon, Teck Hwee, Yi Long, Yan Qin and me.

While waiting for the movie to start, saw Kai Li.

Watched Monsters vs Aliens. Haha. Love the CG!!! It’s just awesome that so many scenes are so life like. 🙂 And there were some really funny scenes that are pretty lame (in a good way). 😀 Made me happy la.

Then we went to squeeze around at the PC Show, and I saw Vernon Loh. It’s like I turned my head right and there he was. Oh and also saw Kai Li and Hui Wen.

Went to Xin Wang Taiwan Cafe and the food variety was limited, but quite okay, though the service there was seriously bad.

Firstly, Huzz ordered a side dish that was never recorded, and after the waiter recorded it down, it never arrived. )(!@)&@*

Then, this waitress who came to collect our bill behaved in a super “I don’t want to work here” attitude. I wanted to ask her what her problem was when she asked if I wanted to use my card to deduct points. Hello?! If I don’t understand can’t you explain?

I know why my photos look like crap already. It’s the settings! Believe me, the pictures above without photoshop were seriously scary. I suddenly understood why my pictures didn’t need much photoshopping all of a sudden a few weeks back. Haha.

I had “Fermented Chicken Rice”. I thought what “fermented chicken”. It’s actually fermented beancurd with chicken! It’s pretty much what I like though 🙂

After all that, we headed for home. As we were walking along City Link, I saw cousin Alvin! Haha.
Vernon, Edmund and I travelled back on the NEL and Vernon was sharing with us our thoughts about that first dinner when he reached Chengdu, and we 3 talked about the things we did there. haha. 🙂 Pretty insightful.

I miss Chengdu.


*turns PMS mode on*

If you think you would rather compromise friendship by being bothered because we were being honest with you, because we are not fake, because we don’t pretend like others to say how nice your ____ is, then fine with me.

Btw, I only speak my mind ONLY after I feel that you won’t be childish like this.

Too bad for me.

I’m sorry but sometimes, I don’t think I want to take shit from people anymore. People who only want attention. This is so freaking childish and secondary school. You are not a secondary school kid anymore.

And for those who know me well enough to see me posting this here, I am seriously pissed and it’s not only because of PMS, but because I seriously had enough.

Being nice always makes me feel guilty. I’ve had enough.

*turns PMS mode off*

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And I say…

The week’s over once again.
My Special Term exam’s nearing.
Yet, there are so many things to do.

2 outings… one for class and one for OPP.
I can’t help but feel down about this. So far, for both, only a maximum of 2 people responded. Maximum. 2. Each.


I don’t rant a lot these days, but here I go again.
The Sims sometimes just make me reflect about my life.

Got to go study. I am a Sim in the University Expansion pack. Lol

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SWE 2005.

Was super distracted while revising, then decided to flip through my photo album (which consists of a lot of OPP Chengdu pictures and a few other pictures), and I found this:

How long was it since this? About 4 years I guess.
So many things have changed. So many people no longer around, so many people not there. Out of that so many people in the photo, seems like only 13 of us are still in the now SNCO-band.

I can’t help but be a little emotional about this. I can’t help but still think back about the things that have happened since that picture. I can’t help but also look back at the BBQ before it all changed.

How naive was I… Even if Chuan Ming wants to come back, it’s a bit difficult now eh? 🙁


Btw, I got a haircut.

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That’s all I want.

I’ve been exhausted lately. Not physically but mentally. The weekend was tiring. It was mentally overwhelming.

I’m that sort of person who expects everyone to assume their own proper roles at home and all. I’m sorry I have to say this but I want to explain properly. I don’t like the place to be messed up at home. You know that program on Monday where they clear people’s house and all? That’s what I mean. I wished my house was cleared properly.

Most of you know that I don’t usually blog about sad or personal stuff, but this one’s different. I really can’t stand going home to a messy messy place. It just makes me upset and stressed.

That’s all I want.

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And this was my Thursday.

Rather hectic day.

Sis and Mum went to Genting this morning with Aunt and Uncle. Weird thing was that I couldn’t sleep because of that. Woke up early, then went to sleep after sending them off. Then suddenly I opened my eyes and floating above my bed was this small hand holding a stuffed shark and waving it at me. I couldn’t see where the hand was from coz there was like a white paper or something covering. But there the shark was. Closed my eyes and opened them and they were still there until I moved.

Stupid dreams that made me hallucinate.

School, then had group project meeting, then rushed off to Vivo’s Food Republic to buy some Thunder Tea for Dad and my lunch tomorrow. Haha. It’s my craving. I always have craving for that once in a while. It’s nice okay! I am such a health freak. 🙂

Oh yea, while finding my way out of Vivo, I saw Dorothy! Haha. She’s going for this year’s NCO camp!! How cool is that?? I shall go for the POP. 😀

Was super late for SNCO. But oh well, when I reached there I realised that Mrs Chua had brought her percussionists from Mus’art so I wasn’t really needed. =/ Yew Kay also told me that he was there not to perform. =/ Anyway, told Pin Wen not to come after that.

So I stayed and watched them rehearse. Haha. Benjamin Hum’s performing too. Lol. His rehearsal was… amusing… hahaha =X

Talked to Kailing (NUS) and Siti (NUS as well). Hahaha. They’re Mus’art’s percussionists. I met Kailing from the NUS band welcome tea but unfortunately she doesn’t remember me. =/

Went home just as they did the finale. Must go and watch them next week!

Just finished doing some housework. Still got schoolwork to do… argh…

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To err is human!

Wah, imagine me happily collecting the cards and feeling proud of my design and everything.

Then imagine my horror when I reached home and decided to look at the cards again once more only to realise there was a spelling error that no one noticed from the beginning.

!!!!!! I almost fainted honestly.

Quickly had to come up with ideas.

Oh no it’s already 11pm. Got to do tutorials and work on Monday’s tutorial!!!

I’ve been worrying about the tickets since the beginning of today and all. Argh!


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So many things happened today that I seriously do not know where to start.

SNCO today was rather crappy, even though it was great to see Kat and Audrey again. However, due to some miscommunication, policies, whatsoever, it made me stressed and freaking irritated that I ended up doing what I did best – ignore. I know this isn’t the most ideal way, and after that I got kinda frustrated and you could hear it from the sarcasm.

And it’s like, if I help, I’ll be ruining one of the principles that I really abide to, but if I don’t, I’m also ruining one of the other principles that I abide to. Tell me what should I do then? That’s why I just ignore everything relating to it.

Btw, if I hear someone telling me or saying things like, “Percussion is the easiest in the orchestra.” or “He’s new, he should learn percussion coz it’s easy.” I AM SO GOING TO SLAP THE PERSON. Okay maybe not literally, but probably in my imagination.

Hung out at Huzz‘s area after that.

Yi Long then called me on my way home as one of the supposedly “free” survey websites online once forced my then project group to pay up to see the results of the survey (we were quite desperate then as the deadline was that same afternoon), so we used Yi Long’s credit card to pay to view the results.

Turns out that the payment was a subscription :s and Twin was paying for that now ignored subscription for MONTHS!! *faints* ARGH!

Had to settle that problem. So I smsed Kaiyan (as I was still on my way home just now).

On the train back, there was this foreign worker (shall not say the nationality here lest people think I’m racist) who was with his friend standing near me. Anyway, I thought that worker was sick coz his friend was holding him up and asking him to sit on an empty seat on the train. The worker kept refusing until he almost slept standing (and so I thought).

So the worker sat down at the seat next to the door (the one next to the glass) and within 5 minutes he vomitted all over himself and on his seat.

His friend immediately pulled him out of the train at the next stop but the damage was there. And the worker didn’t even realise that he had puked on himself. I cannot believe it. And after he vomitted, the alcohol stench was so obvious, it was obvious that the guy was drunk.

There was this guy sitting opposite the worker was so horrified, his expression was priceless. =x

I just wish that people would be more responsible when it comes to drinking. Don’t make yourself a burden to others! Now the cleaners have to clean up the mess, etc.

And that concludes my Saturday.

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School fees woes.

Just saw that my application to pay for my Uni fees using my Dad’s CPF has been rejected.

Because I haven’t repayed the fees from my mum’s CPF for my poly school fees yet.
Luckily I have enough to repay her funds.

This is all so complicated. 🙁

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