T’was a bad day today

I wanted the next article to be something else, but I’m feeling so upset and horrible right now that I really need an outlet to vent.

For people who know me, the thing I hate the most (yes hate even though it’s a strong word) is being accused of things that I did not do.

Today, 2 people that I look up to accused me.

I haven’t felt so bloody upset in a while. First I was accused of giving slip shoddy work because of lack of time – which totally wasn’t the case (it was a conclusion after a discussion and we wanted to re-use design because the design was good instead of re-doing new ones); and then I was accused of trying to dig too much into someone’s work process in a bad mood when I was just asking.

Look, do not question my work ethics. I do not do things because of lack of time. Sure, I do have ideas that save time but I did send for approval before going ahead (which was given).

Also, if you have the opinion that I will have a bad reaction to something and you project that thought at me, don’t bloody get mad.

This is pissing me off.

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Let’s take a short break from talking about my aligners to let me vent a bit.

Do you know how I feel right now? Fking disappointed.

I agreed to let you go for a bit of drinks with your colleagues and you came home near drunk, reeking of hard liquor and I had to fking walk here to your place myself. At 12 midnight.

I rushed home from my jam and collecting stuff just to spend more fking time with you because you have your reservist next week. And this is what I get.

How can I not be selfish in future? This is what I get for trusting you.

And yes I will post this. Because I can and because I am not at the wrong.

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How a Jam goes to hell (31 July).

[Disclaimer] I don’t claim to be a very awesome drummer, or someone who is veryyyy nice. Here are just some thoughts about what people should not do when organising a jam.

So a few weeks ago, I actually went on Soft and contacted someone who’s looking for a drummer.

(Sidetrack) As I’m doing a course online on Social Psychology, the first thing that was taught is hindsight bias. Before I look back in hindsight at all these, I shall post my thoughts here.

I had to contact the person twice before I got a reply if they were still looking for a drummer. “But okay, that’s alright”, I thought. Perhaps they were busy.

I got the set list just last week, and they were:
1) Try – Pink
2) Diamonds – Rihanna
3) Stronger – Kelly Clarkson
4) Yellow – Coldplay
5) Rolling in the deep – Adele
6) Eye of the Tiger – Survivor
7) Separate Ways – Journey
8) I will Survive – Gloria

They added another song yesterday: Torn – Natalie Imbruglia

Problem #1: Too long a set list
I raised this issue to them, that usually when I jam, we play about 5 songs, for 1 hour+, unless we get bored, we might think of more songs to do on the spot. They asked me how many songs I can do. So I told them, I can play all the songs, just won’t work on all of them.

Problem #2: Safety
Okay, let me continue my rant.
I know Singapore is a relatively safe country, but if someone tells you that they don’t have facebook. And we can’t have an audience at the first meeting, it gets creepy, and weird. And I am a girl. I may be paranoid here, but it’s better to be safe than sorry.

Problem #3: Timing
So I messaged them that I will meet them directly at the jam studio. The reply I got was “8pm. Don’t be late.”
Out of respect, I went early to meet Eugene for dinner, and then we went in at 7.50pm.

Guess what time they arrived?
Eight. Twenty. PM.

They took 10 minutes + to set up.
C’mon la. If you can tell others not to be late you at least should be on time too right? I had to message twice to ask where they were (after 8pm) and was only told that they’re coming.

They didn’t even apologise for being late. Thanks ah.

Problem #4: Was it even a jam?
There was a guitarist, a bassist, and a lady.
The lady was the supposed singer.
Suddenly, one shorter guy came in, and asked me about my drum score, and was told to sit down. Whut?

Who was he? I wasn’t intro-ed. I thought no audiences were allowed?

Then halfway through, this girl dashed in to ask for money from the organiser coz of her cab or something. And then she sat down. Again, no introduction.

I found out from my bf that the shorter guy was to be the next drummer after me. Oh so this is now an audition? So who is that girl?

Then suddenly the first lady left, and the second took over to sing. ?!?! No explanation again.

Problem #5: I paid 1/3 of the jamming fees
They booked for 2 hours -> $18/hr so $36.
I was told to pay $10.

Summary: This has been a very confusing jam. LOL. I would conclude that there are some rude people out there. Shouldn’t you be nice and at least explain that it wasn’t a jam? I don’t really care about the money tbh. But just to highlight that there are such people out there.

I’m not sure if they will read this, but I really don’t think I will jam with them.
Shall quit the group chat next week if no sound no picture. Haha.

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And the continuation of that.

Did anyone else notice that North and South Korea may be starting a war? And some people are being rubbish on Facebook by trying to make their friends angry with regards to changing cartoons as their display.

I know, by writing this I am also staying at the topic. But I’m sorry, I really needed to talk about this before I really get violent.

Remember this entry I wrote? The Facebook Cartoon Profile Pic debate.

Anyway, today there was this article that there were rumours that this was started by a group of Pedophiles who wanted to target young people. Apparently, looking at the cartoons you post will determine your age. ROFL.

Okay, the thing was, those are rumours. RUMOURS. I know that no one knows who started this awareness campaign, but did anyone notice that “the NSPCC have said that they welcome any increase in awareness of child abuse”?

And the thing was, that acquaintance (he is no longer considered to be my friend. My friends are all way better than him), started writing on his wall about how people are being stupid by changing their display pictures and that we might be baking paedophiles. The thing is, those are rumours! Which part did he not understand? And the NPSCC has actually said that they welcome any increase in awareness: source.

I am really very appalled by his behaviour and another former classmate have stepped up against him.

So far I have concluded these few things about this acquaintance:

1. He doesn’t understand what an awareness campaign is.
2. He only reads the top part of an article and not the whole article.
3. He doesn’t even help any anti-child abuse campaign because he is stirring up anger and making others angry, hence causing violence, which is against what this whole thing is about.

I really had to post the above article on his status, but I shall not comment any further. I don’t feel like wasting my time, breath and health on people who don’t deserve it and have closed minds.

He’d actually concluded that “if you wanna change your pic, make sure you know what you are doing.” OH RIGHT. Yea sure, I will change my profile pic it MEANS that I support someone that’s why I changed it huh?

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Alumni gripes.

This morning I got a shock of my life (ok not so drama) shock when I saw this HS teacher come into the band room to scold and raise her voice at a band alumnus member.

To be fair to her, this guy did make a mistake by playing his instrument in the band store. The band store has open windows and sound will travel out and some students were having exams.

But is it really necessary to raise your voice and say stuff like, “I am going to complain to your teacher-in-charge about this!” or “Who was the one who played their instrument inside!!” ??

And it wasn’t like this person talked back or what. He even apologised. You could have said nicely can’t you? If he was a student at HS and you talked like that, fine by me. But we have graduated. And I honestly believe that this was an innocent, simple mistake made. To be honest, I didn’t even know that we were not supposed to play in the store and that they were having exams (it was elearning day for them by the way). No need for such a hoo-hah right?

It makes me wonder if this teacher talks like that to her friends who are late or something too. “Why are you late?? I don’t want to be your friend anymore!!”

You may say that I am not being fair. But did you know, after some band juniors (sec 1s or 2s – I saw it with my own eyes) forgot to close the band room door, this male teacher came by and said, “hello. I think you’re supposed to close this door yea?” and he even smiled. Totally different attitude from the first teacher.

I’d also heard this evening (I wasn’t there) that a teacher wasn’t too happy with the band alumni performing and said that the way we performed was as though we were reluctant to perform. (I wasn’t there, so I don’t know what the exact words were used, but the meaning that was sent to me was that.)

I don’t really know how to portray non-reluctance. The rest of them are planning to smile when performing. Maybe I should do that too. But I am quite disappointed to hear such comments. We put in time to come for practices, rehearsals, and didn’t complain about the lack of proper instructions or planning.

I was feeling very happy to be back with the band again until such incidents happened today. This has made me ponder if perhaps we should be back. No other performing arts CCA have alumni back with them except for us. Is that what we get?

I am not asking for special treatment or anything. I was even willing to carry the percussion instruments (until some of the band members themselves told me I am not supposed to, so I helped by taking all the smaller auxiliaries). All I ask for is some understanding and acceptance that we are here because once a Hougean, forever a Hougean.

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Medium – Rare

About an hour ago, I went to MegaBites at NUS to satisfy my meat craving for these 2 weeks (thankfully the food lecture did not have anything about unethical cooking of beef), and I ordered “medium-rare” black pepper beef steak.

To my surprise, the uncle behind the counter said, “There is no medium rare. It’s medium or rare. Do you want medium or rare steak?” He then gave me a lecture on how medium steak is cooked for 5 minutes and rare steak for 3 minutes as well as well-done (7 minutes). I was amused but didn’t want to quarrel with him coz he looked pretty fierce.

I was totally amused mainly because I always order “medium rare” steak at restaurants and no one asked me to choose either one. I wondered if the uncle thought I was challenging him? And the other staff behind pretended that he wasn’t saying anything. -.-“‘

I hope this isn’t how the uncle behaves.

I got pretty confused after that, and FB messaged Huzz to check that I’m correct (he said I was).

But anyway, for the reference of others:
(taken from Wiki)

* Raw — Uncooked. Used in dishes like steak tartare, Carpaccio, gored gored, tiger meat and kitfo.
* Seared, Blue rare or very rare — Cooked very quickly; the outside is seared, but the inside is usually cool and barely cooked. The steak will be red on the inside and barely warmed. Sometimes asked for as “blood rare” or “bloody as hell”. In the United States, this is also sometimes referred to as ‘Black and Blue’ or ‘Pittsburgh Rare’. It is common for chefs to place the steak in an oven to warm the inside of the steak. This method generally means ‘blue’ steaks take longer to cook than any other degrees.

* Rare — (52 °C [125 °F] core temperature) The outside is gray-brown, and the middle of the steak is red and slightly warm.
* Medium rare — (55 °C [130 °F] core temperature) The steak will have a fully red, warm center. This is the standard degree of cooking at most steakhouses, unless specified otherwise.
* Medium — (60 °C [140 °F] core temperature) The middle of the steak is hot and red with pink surrounding the center. The outside is gray-brown.
* Medium well done — (65 °C [150 °F] core temperature) The meat is light pink surrounding the center.
* Well done — (71 °C [160 °F] and above core temperature) The meat is gray-brown throughout and slightly charred.
* Overcook — (much more than 71 °C [160 °F] core temperature) The meat is dark throughout and slightly bitter.


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5 ways of thinking that I don’t like.

For some reason, I just thought of 2 points for this entry and decided to write this.

1. “Percussion is easy!”
I’ve heard this Sooooo many times and corrected people soooo many times that I just want to whack the face of anyone who says this.

If you are a percussionist and you say this, it’s okay.

It’s those who say “Oh I play the (insert name of instrument here) and I want to learn the percussion because it’s EASY!” people that I get annoyed with.

To consider yourself as a percussionist (not a timpanist, not a drummer, not a mallet player), you don’t only learn ONE instrument.

I know I’m anal like this and I think many people who knows me will always try not to say stuff like that as I can be touchy. But I just don’t like it when people think all we do is relax at the back of the band/orchestra and just act cool.

We play solos all the time and when we make a mistake, everyone knows.

I admit I’m not a master of all the instruments but yea.

It’s a percussionist pride I guess.

2. “You have a runny nose = You have flu”
Have you heard of the word “sinus”?

Enough said.

3. “Wow you seem to be so free eh? Doing so many activities during the weekends.”
I don’t understand how people can actually go by their weekends not doing something that isn’t school related. I know, I’m guilty of this back in secondary school when it was either school, or home. But now for me there’s band, orchestra, friends and Gakkai (sometimes). But well, orchestra and Gakkai are considered voluntary activities. I’m not paid for it. I want to do it. If I don’t want to do it, or am really not free to go for any of these, I’ll just not go. School is still placed first, but I have other aspects of my life as well.

I dislike it when some people actually think that I’m very free and comment or make passing remarks like that. I know that I’m not free and I know their logic, but look, I don’t comment about your life and what you do about it right? So don’t comment about mine.

4. Drink -> Red = DRUNK – NOT!
This is the reason why I don’t drink outside. Even though I am wayyy sober than others who look perfectly fine (other than the fact that they’re doing funny or weird stuff), people would ask me if I’m ok because I’m red after a few drinks. Gahh.

Anyway, I don’t believe that we shouldn’t drink outside, but we should know our limits and not drink until we are drunk.

5. “I don’t want to do this (insert name of activity/module/test) because it is difficult!”
This is a kind of thinking that I don’t really like. It’s kind of annoying sometimes, taking the easy way out. If you decide not to do it, then don’t do it, but don’t give a reason like “oh it is difficult!” or “Cannot lah too difficult!” I rather you don’t like it. It’s a weird way of mentality to me. There are always better reasons than the one reason that it is too difficult. =/

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Changes at NYP.

Went back to NYP today for… haha cannot say.

But anyway, so many changes! Was quite stunned. The north and south canteen were all renovated, there was this rock climbing thingy at the design school area and lots of new chairs and tables.

What I don’t like now though is that there are like wayyy more smokers now.

As it was the first day of school, many students had to buy their notes. What they are doing now is that they combined all the notes to be sold at TFA and all the students have to go there to get their notes. Way organised instead of queuing outside the respective book shops.

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Man spewed vulgarities at me.

This morning, I was a victim of a mentally unstable guy (what I make out the man to be).

I was sitting on the bus (Service 30, SBS 9018S, on the seats that face the side of a packed bus instead of the front or back, when this Indian man got up the bus and started coughing away.

It may seem to be an innocent gesture from him but do take note of 2 things:
1. He was coughing loudly and rather long (10secs at least)
2. He was coughing at my face.

Tell me, what would you do in your case? Automatically I shielded my face from his cough which thankfully didn’t have saliva. And I also gave him a look. Because I wondered if it was on purpose or accident and because I wanted to see who he was (so rude).

What happened after that was not common among people of the right/sound mind. He continued coughing and was glaring at me the whole time while doing so. And then, he started spewing vulgarities softly while looking at me. The “f” word, “KNNCCB” and all the works repeatedly.

Some people standing around him looked at him and saw him glaring at me and they looked at me as well. I gave them pleading looks but they turned away. The most unfortunate for me. What did I do? What could I do?

I didn’t look at him after that first glance but I could feel him staring at me and saw him (at the corner of my eye).

Just at this point in time, I remembered this story that I’d read somewhere about this man in UK/US that met some punks on an empty train who were drunk or something. Then he started chanting in his heart and they decided to ignore him.

So I started chanting in my heart.

It just happened so that there’s this Malay lady (who was wearing pink) who stood in front of me (the Indian man was slightly to her right, my left) and she looked at me, and stood there right in front of me, despite having a little space to move away. She could move if she wanted and she didn’t.

The vulgarities continued for at least 5 minutes.

Afterwards, the man, who was gripping on to the handlebars above tried to elbow me as the bus was turning. -.-! I turned my face away to avoid the elbow but he was rather unsuccessful. The woman stood there and if she didn’t move, he couldn’t do anything.

2 elbows and he decided to squeeze to the upper deck of the bus.

I would like to thank this Malay aunty who helped me, whether intentionally or not. I am sure that she knew what was happening as that guy who was spewing vulgarities was rather obvious in his words (people around him could hear him and they stopped talking for about 3 seconds).
And also that faith really works wonders.

(I smsed my mum, sis, Huzz and then to plurk-twitter as well after he walked away. I then updated fb using my phone after my mum told me to. I thought that if something happens to me, at least I knew of the approximate time so that I am able to tell the police or something.)

What happened of the man? He alighted at the SYC stop and while waiting for the bus to stop, I saw his mouth mumbling stuff and still staring at me while waiting at the staircase to alight. Thankfully he didn’t do anything.

What would you do in your case?

If he really hit me or elbowed my face, what I would definitely do is stand up and shout at him. Not sure if this is the wisest thing to do, but at least there are CCTVs in the bus to record the whole thing.

It would be great if people would stand up for me as well.

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My thoughts on Buzzing Cashier 2.

Buzzing Cashier 2- picture taken from MediaCorp’s website

I’m sure many of you have caught Buzzing Cashier 1 and 2, a heartwarming reality program that helps hawker stall owners that have been failing to make profits from their stalls bring their food quality, food hygiene and stall presentation, up to standard.

I’m a big fan of this program, as 1. they help people, 2. they teach cooking and 3. there is a factor of ‘realism’ in the show (The problems and the behaviour of the weekly participants are real).

However, since the last few episodes of Buzzing Cashier 1 and the first episode of Buzzing Cashier 2, something has been bugging me A LOT.

I’m sure some of you who’d watched it will get that feeling as well.

Hm, what is it?

Is it:
a) Kym Ng‘s irritating questions that add no value and no meaning to the show?
b) Kym Ng‘s antics on the show that isn’t funny at all? OR
c) Kym Ng‘s comments that just irritate and push the participants to the limit?

My answer is a, b and c.

Notice that I don’t mention about Quan Yi Fong?
After watching so many episodes, I believe, and strongly believe that Quan Yi Fong’s hosting is really professional. Sure, she does some funny antics on the program. Sure, she asks questions. Sure, she made comments that might upset participants. HOWEVER, her comments make sense AND add value and meaning to the show.

Take for example, last week’s episode (episode 6 I believe), why does Kym Ng have to comment that the participant’s son is an example of a “flower pot” (花瓶) ?

Does it make any sense? Was she trying to be funny? Because I thought it wasn’t funny at all. Did it help the lady learn how to improve on her skills as her hawker?

There was an article from the Channel News Asia (CNA) website earlier this year when this program just started out, that was titled No one said Kym Ng & Quan Yifeng had to be nice.

In it, Kym Ng mentioned that “If we just carry on like this (making no comments), it’ll be no different from a regular cooking show.”

Sure you can make comments, but sometimes, personal attacks don’t work and just leave a bad taste to people who watch the shows.

I cringe everytime Kym Ng makes such comments.

Honestly, to add entertainment value, one doesn’t have to make such comments like this. Kym Ng should learn from Quan Yi Fong how a good host should be. True, Quan Yi Fong was under the limelight a few years ago for being sharp-tongued and making harsh comments, but at least they make sense. I feel that Quan Yi Fong’s comments add entertainment value and yet doesn’t make me cringe.

Watch the next episode next monday, Channel 8, 8pm and tell me what you think.

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