Been doing a lot of thinking today, and really wondering if I should put up with more nonsense again next year?
My current favourite song. Can’t stop listening to it >.< "So maybe I should put up a fight
I'll call them back and borrow a box knife
So I can learn to live with all the stupid shit I've been doing since '99"
Found out that my suspicions about my friend is true. Really really really amazed with my ability to infer things based on words, actions, and behaviour. Not the first time too hehehehe. 90% accuracy.
Someone once asked me, if I had all the money in the world and can pick what I want to do with my free time, what would I do? I answered then that I would sit and play the cello whole day.
This answer has since changed, and well, not much of a diff, but I would choose to do music.
But then, with my lack of skill, talent and time, I’m stuck with doing what I next do best (and enjoy) – Web development.
The past week has been hectic, with me almost breaking down and thankfully my bf knows what to say and tell me. I realise that sometimes, work has to be placed second, or third, or fourth, and that there ARE other things in life.
A few things on my plate now (in no order):
- Work
- SNCO
- Life
- Photography
- Music
Took an MC today due to a bad headache and impending flu. Not a bad rest today, with love bringing me porridge.
Working on a new personal project now. Doing lots of research. Haha But the best thing is that I’m having fun.
I have this potential client that I’m trying to get and their office is in Tanjong Pagar.
After a meeting once with them, I stumbled across this new mall called 100am.
It just so happened that I saw on Deal website a deal for a set meal at hic’cup Concept Cafe located at 100am, and bought a pair for Eugene and I.
So we went last Saturday!
My Candied Citron Tea. Made up of yuzu, honey and kanten strips. Soothes and beautifies me!!
Fruit and vegetable salad!
Eugene’s! Can’t remember what it’s called lol. But it’s milk and grass jelly! (Item doesn’t seem to be on the menu on their website hmm)
Carnivore crepe – Egg with ham (if I remember correctly) and some other toppings!
Surfer’s Dude crepe – Tuna with bonito flakes, mayo and some other toppings!
Their crepes are soft egg crepes. Not sure what the term for it is, but I know there’s another type that’s like without egg and harder.
The meal was definitely worth it! I was quite surprised about the portion of the drinks as we thought it would be a small cup. It’s a pleasantly big cup and we were quite full for dinner after that!
We got the meal through a deal, but the normal price is already quite affordable to be honest. Just $10.90 per set!
To find out more about hic’cup, check out their website:
Yesterday followed Eugene to a wyd:syd jamming/practice session. Basically it’s what I expected it to be: awesome. As an outsider, all I could do was to be as invisible as possible. Honestly I was just listening and grabbing whatever I can learn from them and the drummer Jared as much as possible. Lol.
For the first time when I woke up this morning, I understood that feeling of regret that I think I felt from a friend when we watched wyd:syd play at Zouk. For the first time, I don’t want to tell others that I know someone who played at this or that show; that someone who did this or that. I want to be that someone. While walking to the bus stop, I remembered the words that my friend Mei Yun once told me when I met her one of the sundays a few weeks ago: “Life is short. Do all the things that you want to now before you don’t get the chance.”
Maybe it’s time I take my music plans one more step forward.
By the way, check out wyd:syd at their Bandcamp page: http://www.wydsyd.bandcamp.com. Listen to Leaves and be wow-ed. They’re the winner of the SIM-UOL Music Fest Continuum 2013
Writing this on my phone once again before i paste this on my blog. :p
Will be jamming again tonight! One year ago, i dunno how it feels like to be in a pop/rock band, now i’m enjoying the process and linking the things that i am learning with the symphonic band things that I know.
A song that reminded me of the time when I did an arrangement came on my mp3. And i wonder if i should complete the arrangement that I did a few years back? One reason why I didnt continue was a lack of time and skill. The change of key killed me. Anyway, now that I roughly know about the chords stuff, I think it might speed up my process a bit more instead of listening and trying each note out.
Sometimes my mp3 player surprises me, with forgotten songs appearing on my playlist.
Tomorrow’s a colleague’s last day at work. I still remember the first day when he came in. And I am still here.
Posted by Jasmine on Jan 27, 2013 in Life, Thoughts
Just had the realisation that as someone playing music, we always compare ourselves with others. In a competition, it is never how good that one band is, but it is always subjective to how the previous band was. This has been kinda instilled in me since secondary school band days.
So i just realised that being with a musician much better than me has made me want to push myself forward much more, because in comparison to Eugene, i’m one with lesser chances of making it in the non-classical/symphonic band scene. Problem is that I feel that somehow, my trying to work on things have a really lower success rate.
Finished watching Beck yesterday, and in it was a scene where the band leader was being chided by his friend for breaking the band up. And all the guy thought of was that he wanted to be successful because he promised his friend (who happens to be the lead guitarist of a famous band) so.
Can’t help but think that sometimes, we focus too much on the end result (being successful) that we end up sacrificing people along the way. Sacrificing things and time is ok. But people? Do we really want to do it this way? They may not be good enough or may be flawed now, but do we not give them a chance? Of course, if nothing improves after giving them chances it’s another story. But sometimes our impatience on being successful will throw people out of our lives and turn us into people that lose our own principles
Let’s hope i won’t be like this.
On another note, I really want to be like those second percussionists who play with a major band. Those who do all the other smaller percussion instrument and sound effects (e.g. tambourine, triangle, bongos).
I see people being kicked out of their organisations due to issues with people just right above them.
Nice people have to leave because of people above them, and some people just show their ugly true colours just to save their own ass. They don’t even admit that it’s their fault.
I’m facing something at work, and it’s hard to stay positive or objective. The first main reason would be that if the person is not in the same life condition as you, he/she will never listen anyways. And that sucks to the max. No logic = no understanding. They don’t understand you, there’s no point. They want an explanation, we give them, but they still demand for more.
Don’t know if anyone understands?
Felt a little left out yesterday. No connection with anyone.
Posted by Jasmine on Jan 11, 2013 in Life, Thoughts
I realise that once in a while, I fall into that stupid trap that makes me get negative and negative and negative. I spent the most of last night thinking about what I should do and why I would fall into that trap. And it’s just very simple: I want more things and am not thankful of the things that I have.
I’d just came across a quote the other day which I guess serves as a warning to me that I didn’t heed.
After yesterday’s wake up call (which in order to keep the privacy of it and all, I would like to remind my future self to remember the pooh letters), I would say that fear is a really horrible strong feeling that creates unnecessary thoughts. I should constantly remind myself, Fear -> Hate -> Anger -> Pain and Suffering. I think I also need more daimoku.
I haven’t been sooo negative in a long time, which is honestly scary. >.< I really want to thank the person who gave me that wake up call. You know you are reading this.
Anyway, I think I should schedule this once a month in order to bring myself back to the positives.
I may not list down everything, but at least as much as I can think of.
Things that I am appreciative of today
- My family: That we are all healthy and not broken
- My extended relatives: That we are all still in positive contact and communicating
- Eugene: That I have a boyfriend who fills the gap that I have in my life and being the other piece of me. For taking care of me constantly and being there all the time. (Where can you find another such awesome person? Nowhere.) And that he is healthy and patient, and so many things.
- Midnight: For being in my family and accepting the fact that he is staying with humans. And for being there sometimes when I need a hug hehe
- Faith: For being the pet that we can just look at and chat with when we need a listening ear (sounds emo but it’s nottt)
- SNCO: For being there every week and for giving me loads of opportunities when it comes to performing
- SSA: For giving me the chance to know awesome people who can help me with my issues
- My friends: For being there when I need them and when they need me.
- My job: For giving me lots of chance to learn how to be more sociable instead of being in my shell. For being able to meet new people, and for being able to give me the allowance that I need.
- Myself: For constantly trying to strive to become better, as much as I know that I am not perfect. For wanting to be healthy and better. For being alive and not suffering from any major health issues.
Look forward, look forward. The past is the past. I have so many things to be happy about and I shouldn’t be sad or scared. If things come, they come. There is nothing to fear
2012 was a pretty good year for me! Focused on working on myself, and ended up spending a lot more money and having a lot of fun. Haha. Many things weren’t expected and planned, and I only had a general idea that this year must be an awesome year for me. I ended up with a lot more new experiences than I ever had in 2011.
Hope that 2013 will have more of such stuff!!
1) Travelled to Taiwan for the first time!
Elves Lab company trip! Read about it here.
2) Went on a cruise with my family!
First time on a cruise too! Royal Caribbean.
3) Rhapsody in Spring concert
With Mr Wu Ee Lung and his string ensemble! Made lots of friends.
Read about it here.
4) Played with a pop band at a competition!
Got the opportunity after Pinwen asked me. First time I’m actually the only drummer girl somewhere. Haha. Though we didn’t win, I got a great experience and also got to really see what the industry is like!
5) Got Midnight
6) Travelled to Hong Kong
With Desmond, Kai Lun, and her colleague KT. Read about it here.
7) Travelled to Bangkok for Danny’s wedding
Got to shoot photos as well and experience a different photographer’s culture. Read about my trip here!
8) Saw Evelyn Glennie LIVE!
Finally after so many years I got to see her live! Read about it here.
9) Helped take pictures for Danny’s wedding in Singapore
But I think I didn’t do well
10) Guest played with Xinmin Secondary Alumni at SIBF
First time guest played anywhere! And at a competition too!!
11) Formed Crayon Parade
With Pinwen, Audrey, Eugene! Though I initially thought it was a one off thing (and was really sad about it), I think CP will come together when there’s opportunity to play. Read about our first performance here!
12) Travelled to Bintan
Smaller company trip!
13) Travelled to Tokyo!
In the midst of blogging about it!
14) Eugene <3
Enough said!
I’m not sure what I really want this year except to be healthier. Maybe more swimming perhaps. Got sick too often too soon! >.<
